My keyboard no longer has a down arrow key. It’s rather unfortunate. The actual place where the key should be is still there, as is the little nubby button that I can press, but really it is not the same. You also never realize just how much you use the down arrow until you no longer have it. Every time I visit a website I use the down arrow to scroll down. Moving my mouse all the way over to the scroll bar and dragging it toward the bottom? Psh. Far too much work. The down arrow is just so convenient.

I’m considering super gluing a cover back on to the little nubby thing so I can use it again; however, I have no idea what the implications of supergluing something to the inside of a keyboard would be. I have a laptop so it’s not like I could just go out and get a new keyboard if it messes it up.

Little down arrow

A black void where you once lay

A triangle – gone

So I got a new bike today. It’s a nice bike, had most of the features I wanted and was affordable, but here’s the thing. I just don’t love it. It’s just ok. The color is nothing special and it doesn’t look nearly as old school as I was hoping for- I wanted a total hipster bike. But if I complain about it I’ll sound spoiled. I just got a new bike! Everything should be awesome! But really, it’s just ok. I guess all I’m hoping for at this point is to accidently come accross the perfect bike really soon so that we can return the alright one. Here’s to hoping.

You really wanted to know what that title was about didn’t you? Well too bad. That’s a story for another day. =)

My goal in life is to lose Never Have I Ever.

If I could go through my life having done everything I could possibly think of, I think I would end up in a very happy place.

If I have to decide between two things to do, I ask myself: “Which could make a better story?”. And then I do that one.

And in case you were wondering, the answer to that question is never just sitting around watching movies or tv, or surfing the web all day, or doing anything that is routine. Routine is boring.

Ever have I skinny dipped with people I don’t know. Ever have I danced in a field of sunflowers at night. Ever have I made friends with the people who work at lazer tag over some coloring books and silly hats. Ever have I chased down strangers with nerf guns. Ever have I broken into spontaneous dance parties at pretty much every place imaginable.

I want to be the person who ends up living their life to the fullest. The one that is full of surprises. The one who has seen the world and seen what lies outside their own back door.

And I’m going to be.

Because sometimes you have to

Just Do It.

Go to “Wikipedia.” Hit “random” and the first article you get is the name of your band.

Then go to “Random Quotations” and the last four or five words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.

Then, go to Flickr and click on “Explore the Last Seven Days” and the third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

Probably an emo new-age band?

This is what I did on my snow day.

Isn't he cute?

I drew him and colored him all by myself! His name is Jeffrey. Too bad that once drawing good dinosaurs stops being the coolest thing evarrrr (fifth grade or so?) I discover my unprecedented dino-drawing talent. Oh well. I think he’s cool.

See how bored my 6 day weekend is making me?

But this snow day craziness really has to stop. This is our 4th day off, and now we have 2 weekend days. What am I supposed to do with all this time? The roads are perfectly fine so at least I’m able to see people and do things, but really Cincinnati? Are you that weak? I feel like I’m retired- all I have to think about when I get up every day is what I feel like doing besides eating and sleeping. For 6 days now! It’s like spring break, except minus the our teacher’s preparedness, so minus any projects and long term assignments they would have given us. And I have to break it to you Ms. Superintendent (I believe you make these calls?), those AP exams don’t go any farther away because we took so much time off. Making up the time at the end of the year really doesn’t help us much. So thank you for officially giving the choice between Saturday school and failing every last one of my 5 AP exams this year.

Just kidding, I am taking 5 but I don’t think that what we do in class matters to two and a half of them. English and gov? Eh who cares. BC Calc matters a bit but we just teach ourselves anyway. But physics and chemistry? We need our teachers! We need to go back to school!

Having restored/reformatted/essentially deleted my computer so many times, my music library has suffered. I have lost so much music over the years that it’s really quite sad, and thanks to apple being annoying, having your music library synch to the computer is really the only easy way to handle the iPod/Computer connection. Thankfully I have always been the type of person to create lots of mix CDs; however, this situation is not ideal because:

1. It’s tedious. There are only so many CDs I can rip in one sitting  before I go crazy
2. I have to label them all myself. iTunes cannot recognize any CD that is not on the official Gracenote thing.
3. This point kind of goes with the last, but in the annoyance that comes with having to label your songs again comes the difficulty of labeling foreign language songs. I have a ton of French music that I don’t remember the title or artist and I can’t go my usual route of googling the lyrics because I can usually only pick out a couple words in a given phrase and half the time I don’t even conjugate those few correctly. And it really bugs me to have unlabeled songs.

I was going to make this longer, but I think installing some iPod softwear update killed my touch… Fantastic. I’ll deal with this tomorrow.

Ever notice that whenever one of these  ”Write X Many Random Things About Yourself” things comes around X gets bigger? The last one was definitely 16, now we’re at 25… Soon we’ll all have lists of thousands of things about ourselves that no one else cares about or will ever read in entirety. That being said, here are 25 things you might not know about me!

1.  I’ve always wanted to be one of those people that can go to events and trips and somehow take millions of pictures. I do bring my camera but usually I end up with about seven pictures and four of them don’t suck. I then convince myself that it’s because I’d rather have fun than take pictures proving how much fun I’m having, but I still wish I had more.
2. Pajamas are my favorite. As long as I’m not going out anywhere later, I’ll change into my pajamas almost immediately after getting home from school.
3. I love jigsaw puzzles. Every winter my dining room table gets covered in my many thousand piece monstrosities. The last one I did was a really nice giant one of Times Square at night that my brother gave me for Christmas.
4. I really dislike talking on the phone and will do almost anything to avoid it. I’ve gotten slightly better over the years but am still ever so greatful for the internet so I don’t have to.
5. After having nearly the entire Phantom of the Opera soundtrack memorized since I was little, I finally saw the movie the other night. It felt so cool to finally understand the context of the songs!
6. The b key on my laptop is kind of broken- I have to press extra hard to make sure it registers. I should probably clean out the keyboard..
7. Despite being Canadian and living is Massachusetts for most of my life, I get cold ridiculously easy. It’s a combination of horrible circulation and possible anemia that makes my fingers and toes start to lose feeling and color even when the weather isn’t that cold. It kind of makes them look zombie like because it’s the precursor to frostbite, and I don’t like it so I complain about being cold.
8. When I was little, my parents thought I was going to grow up to be an actress or a singer or at least some sort of preformer. It sounds ridiculous now, but in their defense at the time it made a little sense at the time. I was really into the theater scene most of my life, but just stopped when we moved. Now I’m getting back into it again..
9. I hold the record for most teeth ever pulled at once- 14! Some of them were baby teeth, but even still I was eating soup for months.
10. Whenever people mention my weight I always feel really awkward, even if they’re giving my a compliment. It’s not like I try to be skinny, and I especially dislike it when people insinuate I am anorexic.
11. If I were to ever become a member of ” [insert addiction] Anonymous”, it would probably end up being the internet. 
12. Coinciding with the previous point, I used to use internet acronyms and slang in real life to be ironic or as a joke, but they’ve started to become a scary habit. I am such a geek.
13. Coinciding with the coincinding point, I really dislike it when people use the term “ironic” or “irony” incorrectly. I once caught Mrs. Allen at it, and totally would have pointed it out in class if I weren’t so shy then. On the other hand, if it had been Mrs. Smith… For a good reference check out http://www.notironic.com/
14. [I keep on thinking of points that go along with my previous point] Speaking of being shy, in my lifetime I have transformed from the loudest most attention wanting little kid, to an ultra-shy person who could barely function in polite society, to now what I think is a good balance.  (hopefully?) I really hope that other people can see the change over the past couple years, because personally I think I’ve gotten quite a bit better. I talk now! To people!
15. I am really bad at sports. My hand/eye/foot coordination is awful, I am perpetually out of shape, am really weak, and a lot of the time I understand how I’m supposed to play the game I just fail at doing so. That being said, I do try hard to do well and get in better shape, and I’m trying new sports to try and find one that I’m at least okay at and enjoy so that I have something to keep my active when I get old.
16. I don’t get sick often, but when I do I tend to get *really* sick- kidney infection, pnemonia, etc. Once when I got pneumonia I lost like 10 pounds. I was in the musical Annie at that time and totally looked the part of a starving orphan.
17. I don’t ever remember having a good math teacher, but somehow I still love the suject.
18. My sense of direction is miserable. I can’t drive anywhere new without having detailed instructions and preferably walking through it several times on Google Maps, especially with street view- that thing is awesome! Even better is when I have someone in the car giving me the instructions; I feel so much more at ease.
19. I don’t consider myself an especially nature loving person, but that doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy it. One of my favorite sounds is rain on window panes. 
20. People don’t always understand my sense of humor, but I love to make people laugh. I tend to be better at the witty or sarcastic side comments though, my story telling ability is typically abysmal.
21. I really want to have a birthday party. Or actually just a party in general. But I’d want someone to help me throw it, or throw it as a surprise, because I’m not sure I know enough people that would show up. I’m not sure completely why I want to, it just seems like a fun high school thing to do, and I haven’t had one since ever.
22. All of my points seem really long compared to other people’s… does that mean I’m conceited? Or just that I think hearing a background story makes each point more interesting.
23. It isn’t evesdropping if you don’t have to try hard to hear the conversation
24. I was considering having this point state how much I dislike a certain nickname of mine, but then I decided to include it, people would laugh and start calling my it just to see me get irritated. So ha!
25. I consider the duty to make the world a better place for those around you and for yourself much more important than religion will ever be to me. My moral values come from myself, my thoughts, my reasoning. I’m a personal philosophy type of person rather than an institutionalized philosophy one. 

Wow. This is really long. I applaud you if you actually read it all, but if not I don’t particularily care, I just want to know more about you!

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
Yeah

2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress?
It depends? Right now I’d say a short party dress

3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
Depends on who it was from

4. Group dates or single dates?
Depends on how I feel. Right now group/

5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
Not especially. Everyone acts differently depending on who they’re with, it’s a fact of life

6. Are diamonds a girl’s best friend?
No

7. Is your hair up or down today?
Up, but I’ve been wearing it down a lot more lately

8. Do you straighten your hair?
Every once and awhile, but it generally looks better curly

9. Favorite mascara?
I don’t really have a preference

10. Do you get your nails done?
I hate having long nails 

11. Small purses or big?
Small. I look bizarre carrying around a purse bigger than I am.

12. In your purse, what are your must haves?
Wallet, cell phone, chapstick, tissues, some form of mint or candy, and tide-to-go

13. Jeans or sweats?
Jeans

14. Do you wear jewelery that’s uncomfortable?
Generally not.

15. Do you text message a lot?
Almost never

16. What would you do if you got pregnant?
Probably die.

17. What’s your favorite color?
Green

18. Heels or flats?
Depends on what I’m doing. As long as I’m not going to be on my feet too long, heels

19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
Never

20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
Of course

21. Walmart or Target?
Target

22. Do you wear collared shirts?
On occaison. 

23. Do you like preppy boys?
Sure

24. Do you think lip gloss is the best!?
Not especially

25. Do you own any big sunglasses?
Big compared to my face or big compared to normal people’s faces

26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
On school days I can be ready in around 20

27. Do you like to wear band-aids?
If I have a cut?

28. Do you like skater boys?
Sure

29. Do you often wish there was something you could change?
Yes

30. Gold or silver?
Silver as a color, but gold (particularly white gold) for jewelery because I’m not allergic to it

31. Do you like to receive flowers?
I don’t dislike it
32. do you like surfer boys?
Sure

33. Do you dress up for the holidays?
Yes

34. Do you like to wear dresses?
Yes. I think I need more informal ones so that I actually get the chance to wear them

35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
6

36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy?
Does my brother count?

37. Would you date a guy shorter than you?
It would be tough to find one

38. Do you like to hold hands?
Sure

39. What is the youngest you would date?
My age or the guys?  The standard formula for dating creepiness is half your age plus 7. If you date anyone younger than that age you are creepy.

40. What is the oldest you would date?
My age minus 7, doubled

41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
Hair usually

42. Is it hot when guys sweat?
Not especially

43. What is the best feature in a guy?
Personality, ability to make me laugh

44. Do you like making eye contact?
Usually, but sometimes I overthink it and it gets weird

46. Would you kill for chocolate?
Elmo

47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
Sure

48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?
Depends on my mood, but it can be pretty fun, especially with friends

49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
Not especially, it’s always online

50. Do you yell a lot?
On occaison, but not generally 

51. Would you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work?
To school yeah but generally on exam days, and they have to look at least halfway decent.

52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
I change my look up with regularity, but it’s for my own amusement

53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
Never

54. What makeup could you not live without?
Chapstick? 

55. Do you fall in love easily?
I’m not sure

56. Do you have cramps?
Not right now.

57. Do you think you have the bestest friends ever?
I guess?

58. What’s your idea of the perfect date?
Depends on lots of things, but it has to have lots of laughs

59. When was the last time a guy had his arm around you for more than a minute?
A few days ago

60. Are glasses a turn off?
No

61. Do you wear brand clothes?
Sometimes, but it isn’t a necessity

63. What would you like to happen this summer?
To enjoy myself.

64. Do you sing in the shower?
On occaison.

65. Did your friends approve of the last guy you liked?
I think so

66. Is there a boy that you miss right now?
Yes

67. How should a guy apologize after hurting you?
By saying sorry? And meaning it.

68. Has any boy ever made your knees go weak?
sure

69. Do you have any celeb crushes?
I have found the occaisonal celeb attractive

71. If you ever got to meet your celebrity crush, what would happen?
I’d probably stare a bit and see if I could take a picture

72. The song that describes your love life right now?
I don’t know

73. How much makeup do you wear daily?
Somewhere between nothing and eyeliner, mascara, eye shadow, moisturizer, foundation, and the powdery stuff.

74. Favorite flowers?
Roses are a bit cliche, but they’re pretty

75. How was Valentine’s Day this year?
Last year? eh. This year will probably suck.

76. What are you listening to at the moment?
A song from the Pirates of the Carribbean 3 Soundtrack

77. Lyrics from the said song?
No lyrics

78. Do those lyrics mean anything to you?
No

79. If the guy who recently hurt you were to come over to your house unexpectedly to explain things, what would you do?
I’m not sure

80. Do you skip meals?
I eat incredibly erratically, but I never starve myself.

81. Do you believe that there’s someone in this world for everyone?
Hopefully.

82. Do you have any admirers right now?
I don’t know.

83. Does the first initial of the guy you like begin with one of the letters from A – L?
Mmm

84. M – T?
Mmm

85. U – Z?
Mmm

86. Does he like you too?
Mmm

87. When you spot a guy friend of yours, how do you want him to greet you?
I say hi

88. What do you think of a guy who tells all his friends about you?
That would be nice I guess

89. What if he brings you everywhere?
Depends on if everywhere is places I want to go

90. What if he’s a flirt?
I’m not sure

91. Any movies you’re excited to see?
Not off the top of my head

92. Reading anything besides Gossip Girl / A-List novels, at the moment?
Plenty. Song of Solomon, Anathem, and I just finished some bad mystery novel.

93. What are you listening to NOW?
John Law by Dropkick Murphys

94. Lyrics?
I’m not sure

95. Do THESE lyrics mean anything to you?
I don’t know them well at all

96. Who was your first love?
*sigh*

97. How long has it been since you’ve been really happy?
at least a week or two

98. Do you tease your hair?
On occaison

99. One quote
Keep trying

to stop crying